Sometime in the last week, my baby turned into a little boy….an all-boy little boy. His vocalizations have reached a new decibel level. He bangs things together. He scoots around on the floor. He pulls my hair. He really wants whatever it is that he really wants. And, in other inexpressible ways, he simply acts like a boy–not so much like a baby.
It is strange going through these new stages with him. I am not only watching him grow and change but I am realizing that these stages are mine too. I have been the mother of a newborn. I am now the mother of an infant. Soon I will be the mother of a toddler. Etc.
I watch the children of my friends and love to see them running and jumping and using language. I look forward to baby C living out the carefree, joyful, exploratory days of his childhood, doing all the things a little boy will delight to do. Yet, it is a daunting task to think of guiding his little life as he interacts more and more with the world around him. It is terribly sobering to think that my life, the one with which he interacts the most right now, is his primary model for what it is like to be a person in this world. God help my little boy….. He will. I am grateful.
When I was growing up, turning ten was a big deal….it was, according to my Father, when I became a "real person." It was a joke my Dad and I had (that I wasn’t a "real person" until I reached double-digits) and maybe a way that he tried to keep his youngest of five children young…a little girl….not a real person who would grow up and become a woman and a wife and a mother.

